Well, today was the day. Rich, his mom, and I left about 10am to go to Huntsman to get the scan results. We all had mixed emotions. My husband is so positive that his hopes are set very high. He was beyond hoping and praying for a clean scan. Of course I want that too, but my prayers were focused on shrinking and improving. It is hard to wait on the Lords time. When the doctor came in, he went over a million things before reviewing the scan results. I wanted to shake him and say, " YADA YADA, get to the RESULTS!" I didn't though, I behaved. The scan showed cancer still in his liver and in his pancreas. BUT, they have both shrunk since the last scan! :) I wanted to scream and shout with excitement. Although WE both really wanted it to be GONE, I took this as the win it was, and was ready to partyyy! My husband on the other hand was very grateful that his body was responding, but disappointed that it was still inside him. He wants so badly to return to work, forget chemo, and live like he once did. I can't imagine his pain and frustration. The ride home was quite, I didn't want to show my happy dance since he was having mixed emotions. We came home and just went back to life as we know it. Errands, house work, he took a nap, etc. But inside me, was a little party for him. I am happy that his body has responded so well to chemo. His markers began in the 6,000 area and are now at 400. No arteries are clogged, no more blood clots. He is healing. Slowly, but he is healing. I know that cancer can do whatever it wants, whenever it wants, but today I am HaPpY! <3 I am proud of his determination, and the FIGHT he has in him.
F2TF FIGHT TO THE FINISH!
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