Nothing like ripping the band aid off quickly. Since my husbands death (3.5 mo) we have experienced Halloween, Thanksgiving, my birthday, Christmas, New Years, our childhood anniversary of 24 years, and his birthday all without him. I think New Years has been the hardest. I was very much dreading his birthday. I think it was because it was HIS day. A celebration of T-Bone! I have never had to celebrate his life, without him. I grabbed the bull by the horns and... went on a getaway to Midway with a super sweet friend, one that is proving to have my back in all things. She not only let her daughter miss school, but she called 'in' at work so I would have someone to share my day with. Keaton chose not to go, that kid double books his life away because he forgets everything. (love you Keat) Shona picked me up at noon and we went to lunch, then to Park City for retail therapy. Then we drove into Midway, our hotel was gorgeous. We enjoyed swimming, hot tubing, room service, and I had about an hour soak in the jetted tub. (bliss) The next morning we checked out the crater, had lunch, went ice skating and loved the ice castles. We made it home in just enough time to get Richard B some balloons and visit the grave for a bit. It was a pretty good day. Once we got home.... the sad found it's way in. But... it was suppose to.
I think my children and I are doing well. We struggle, but I am so grateful that we can see the good all around us. We miss him, but I am forever happy to have had him for the time that I did. Happy Birthday Richard Blake. I love you. <3
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