In a bit of a fUnK...

  Well, it has been about a month since my last entry.
I got sick with influenza for about 9 days... that was lovely. Glad to be better. Mylie is still with us, but I found out on Wednesday that she will need another surgery, which she most likely won't survive. I have to put her down. I am dragging my feet on that for obvious reasons. I can't imagine walking around the house without her following me around. She has been such a good girl.

I have been having a hard time lately, and I can't wait to snap out of it. My anxiety's have been acting up again. Rich started a clinical trial a few days ago. He has been to Huntsman a LOT the last few weeks. I HATE that I can't go with him. It is a bitter sweet, as I am so grateful for a job that I LOVE, but I soo wish I could go with him. He has been so sick today. I hate this! I hate watching him suffer. Sometimes I just want to feel sorry for us and our situation. I don't usually feel like that, thank goodness. I usually feel blessed for all the good we have (which is a LOT) and focus on everything happy and positive. I know things could always be worse, no matter what. I truly do believe that...  However the last week I have just been in a bit of a funk. My heart has been sad. He has been in a lot of pain again, and then the last few days he seems weak again, and pale. He won't eat much. I know he will snap out of this again, and I know I will too!